Jump!

Jumped over my first hurdle at work today.

Had a joint-presentation with a fellow newbie teammate on a topic chosen by the boss. I'd been to a previous presentation by another team member and it had seemed laid-back enough. Boy, was i in for a shock. Since ours was attended by the HOD and all the other bosses, it was a lot more intimidating. I guess i did my best, considering the circumstances. Boss asks tough questions but she seems like a fair person. And she's like a wealth of info, just from the top of her head. What a woman. I'm kind of in awe.

Received good feedback from everyone and hear back from one of the managers that the boss was happy with it as well. Phew. Who knew a presentation could be intense? But then again, all presentations are a bit difficult for me since public speaking is not my forte. It seems like the new job demands a lot of it though. Guess i gotta adapt fast.

So all in all, it wasn't a bad day. I say that because my tummy still feels queasy all day. This is getting to be really exhausting.

of sunshine and rainbows.

I hate being whiny and complaining all the time but this has got to be the most miserable period of my life. I know, it’s supposed to be the happiest time of my life but I just can’t muster up any energy to do so.

And I’m kind of frustrated with myself because from the outside, it just doesn’t seem to be like a big deal. But my stomach is uncomfortable ALL the time and if I’m not trying to figure out what I can eat that won’t make me throw up, then I’m in the bathroom actually yakking my guts out. It’s definitely no love and rainbows. I haven’t cooked in weeks or done the laundry or did any chores…I really feel all sorts of useless.

Everyone keeps telling me that it’ll get better (and the little research I’ve done online says so too) but at the moment, it’s not very comforting. Most of the time, I just feel like curling up into a ball. It’s not so bad when I’m at work cos I have things to distract me but when I’m at home… I don’t know. I’m just so nauseous all the time. Only thing that I feel really helps soothe my tummy is frozen yoghurt. Haha.

The house is in a sorry state of mess. Normally I would just be picking up stuff here and there and making sure things don’t get too out of hand. I’m lucky that my husband is a super person who does all the things that I can’t do for now (both him and my sis help out with the laundry) but of course it’s not really the same as what I could do around the house when I’m in a better state of mind.

But then again, I think I have to count my lucky stars that I got pregnant on the new job (sure, I’m worried about what my boss here will think, getting pregnant so soon into the new job, but hey it wasn’t planned) – but I don’t think I could survive late nights at the office (goes with the territory at my old job). And the stress would probably do me in. It’s stress-free here (so far), so maybe I should find some things to occupy myself with. Update: told my boss, he took it like it was any other uninteresting news haha. Shouldn’t have much effect on my work.

I want to do pre-natal yoga as well but don’t think it’s a wise thing to do at the moment, given that I feel nauseous, even standing straight up; much less with my heads between my legs.

I feel like I should be doing a lot more research – about food consumption, about my physical health, about the doctor for delivery (I pretty much have my heart set on a doctor but she’s VERY in demand so I guess I’m still up for opinions). But then again, I just don’t have the energy. I used to love veggies but I now turn green at the sight of greens. It sounds funnier than it actually is :/

werk.it

(written the week I started my new job...)

First few days at new working place; always awkward, no?

I’ve made a few friends; and my team mates are nice. Actually, everyone here is nice. You’re taken aback at first, but everyone smiles to strangers here.  Also, can’t complain much, the perks here are pretty good. A lot of things they offer their employees are convenient and I don’t see anyone working like zombies here. It’s a lot more formal than my old place but then again my old place was super casual by everyone’s standards. Don’t get me wrong, cos everyone here has been polite and nice. They’re just more reserved, I guess. But they all smile at strangers, which is a lot more than I could say for my old place.

I can’t say I miss my old job. I think I grew out of the job and the demands of it. It definitely taught me how to cope with intense pressure and non-stop deadlines so silver lining and all that, huh? I miss my friends though. I guess that’s the downside of making real, actual friends at work instead of just being colleagues. We actually spend time with each other out of working hours. So I do miss their company and friendship. But then again, it’s still early days. It took me at least a couple of months to get familiar at my old place.

Work scope here is a lot more different. And a lot more interesting, I must say. You actually need to know what’s going on in the world, currently (financially-wise, at least). So we need to read up a lot, which is a definite added bonus. Don’t know what work assignments are going to be like, though so just gotta wait and see. But people definitely seem really engaged in what they do here and everyone seems super professional. Maybe I just haven’t found a nook or cranny to fit in yet. But I’ve always been one who likes to focus on the positives, whatever the situation is.

new beginnings

contemplated on starting this for awhile.actually, was torn between continuing my old blogspot page (which was abandoned circa 2012 when things just got too crazy with the old job. in between work, family, friends, books, and my love for writing; something just had to give. and sadly it was my old blog. also thought of just to keep writing in my tumblr, but it just seemed so...out of place. tumblr for me was always about discovering myself through photos and quotes. also played with the idea of starting a new wordpress blog, but i guess in the end, my loyalty remains with blogspot, heh.

so, here we are. new beginnings.

2013 has really been about fresh starts. finally, in january, i sent in my resignation letter to slb. was definitely not an easy decision - it took me three meetings with my manager to actually hand in the letter. breaking the news to my lead was a lot easier - he just said, he just wants me to be happy. eventually, manager came around too (after trying to offer me other alternatives instead of leaving haha) but we parted on good terms. i will forever be thankful to those two guys for showing me how kind bosses can be. sure, there were times i felt like strangling them (and i'm sure they felt the same way about me) but at the end of the day, they were the best bosses i've ever had. so i served out my three months, and in april, i said my goodbyes.

having been away for almost two months from my previous job, i can say that i don't miss the work. but i do miss the people. my ex-teammates were like my family. we laughed, we cried, we bitched about stuff together. and we stuck together. i miss them, but life goes on.

so here i am in a new place with a different working environment (somewhat more formal than my old place but then again, most places are more formal than my old place) - i actually had to go through an office wardrobe overhaul. and now, i think i'm gonna have to go through another wardrobe overhaul - but tha's a different story for a different entry.

anyhow, here's to new beginnings! cheers.