going into week 36, i suppose i should start thinking of when to start maternity leave. but i have an appointment with my gynae on monday, so i guess i'll just have a chat with him and take it from there. i'm reluctant to start maternity leave too early because i feel like i can still drive to work without any problems (the drive to and back from work isn't so bad, especially now that it's school holidays) and i wouldn't be doing much at home anyway. also, i'd rather have more time with jigglyboo after she comes out to see the world instead of wasting the time off at home, alone. after all, i do only get 60 days off from work. i was thiking that since my EDD is at the end of dec, maybe i'd just start my leave in week 39, starting from 23rd dec (which is only 3 weeks away, can you believe it?!).
don't really know how i feel at the moment - nervous and excited i guess. nervous cos i don't know what to expect and excited to finally see jigglyboo. luckily, everything else is all in place so i'm not stressed out about anything - we finished decorating the apartment and the nursery and the hospital is just across the road and i plan to ask my gynae a list of questions when i see him next week - so i'll have a bit of peace of mind. and luckily i'm not involved in any work projects at the moment (which can also be quite boring - but i've been using the extra time to do lots of extra research on baby-related stuff) so that's also one less thing to worry about.
i just hope jigglyboo doesn't spring any surprises cos i know my bday celebration is coming up; don't want R and my friends to end up bringing the cake to the hospital haha. and i'm still looking forward to the BBW sale (i need to stock up for the days that i'll be holed up at home!), just that i probably won't stay as long as i did last year. i suppose a mid-month delivery would be just nice. but hey, as long as jigglyboo comes out healthy and bouncing, i'll be more than thankful.
Wednesday, November 27, 2013
boo!
going into week 36, i suppose i should start thinking of when to start maternity leave. but i have an appointment with my gynae on monday, so i guess i'll just have a chat with him and take it from there. i'm reluctant to start maternity leave too early because i feel like i can still drive to work without any problems (the drive to and back from work isn't so bad, especially now that it's school holidays) and i wouldn't be doing much at home anyway. also, i'd rather have more time with jigglyboo after she comes out to see the world instead of wasting the time off at home, alone. after all, i do only get 60 days off from work. i was thiking that since my EDD is at the end of dec, maybe i'd just start my leave in week 39, starting from 23rd dec (which is only 3 weeks away, can you believe it?!).
don't really know how i feel at the moment - nervous and excited i guess. nervous cos i don't know what to expect and excited to finally see jigglyboo. luckily, everything else is all in place so i'm not stressed out about anything - we finished decorating the apartment and the nursery and the hospital is just across the road and i plan to ask my gynae a list of questions when i see him next week - so i'll have a bit of peace of mind. and luckily i'm not involved in any work projects at the moment (which can also be quite boring - but i've been using the extra time to do lots of extra research on baby-related stuff) so that's also one less thing to worry about.
i just hope jigglyboo doesn't spring any surprises cos i know my bday celebration is coming up; don't want R and my friends to end up bringing the cake to the hospital haha. and i'm still looking forward to the BBW sale (i need to stock up for the days that i'll be holed up at home!), just that i probably won't stay as long as i did last year. i suppose a mid-month delivery would be just nice. but hey, as long as jigglyboo comes out healthy and bouncing, i'll be more than thankful.
don't really know how i feel at the moment - nervous and excited i guess. nervous cos i don't know what to expect and excited to finally see jigglyboo. luckily, everything else is all in place so i'm not stressed out about anything - we finished decorating the apartment and the nursery and the hospital is just across the road and i plan to ask my gynae a list of questions when i see him next week - so i'll have a bit of peace of mind. and luckily i'm not involved in any work projects at the moment (which can also be quite boring - but i've been using the extra time to do lots of extra research on baby-related stuff) so that's also one less thing to worry about.
i just hope jigglyboo doesn't spring any surprises cos i know my bday celebration is coming up; don't want R and my friends to end up bringing the cake to the hospital haha. and i'm still looking forward to the BBW sale (i need to stock up for the days that i'll be holed up at home!), just that i probably won't stay as long as i did last year. i suppose a mid-month delivery would be just nice. but hey, as long as jigglyboo comes out healthy and bouncing, i'll be more than thankful.
four.
growing up, i'd always thought that my siblings and i weren't very close, compared to the siblings my friends had. we were such different individuals and pretty much did our own thing. we didn't talk about any personal stuff, or share any secrets.
but as we've grown older (we're in the 20-early 30s range), i've come to realise that just because we don't talk as much as other siblings do, doensn't mean we're not as close. we meet up over breakfasts, lunches and dinners - just because. we were brought up by parents who aren't really sentimental about having family gatherings and whatnots so it's kind of difficult to get all of us together at one place at one time, but the time we do spend together - is actually quality time. we talk about what's going on with our lives, the places we've traveled to and eventhough it may not be obvious in words, we always support each other. what i've come to appreciate is, that we've always been honest with eaach other. we don't really sugar-coat stuff. most things don't bother us, but when the time calls for important stuff to get done, we get it done. i guess we're all headstrong and independent in our own way - but we've always been more of do-ers than talkers -and we make an effort to come together and support each other.
we have our dad to thank for the fact that none of us are shy about voicing out our opinions, but at the same time it's balanced by knowing when to hold back and keep our cool, which is what our mom has always taught us.
so these days, i appreciate my siblings more - for their independence, for their straight-forward ways, for all their good features and also obvious flaws. because i see some other friends who struggle to have straight conversations with theirs - and i'm glad that the connection between my siblings and i are so uncomplicated. for some reason, nowadays, that connection has just come naturally to us. and for that, i will always be grateful.
but as we've grown older (we're in the 20-early 30s range), i've come to realise that just because we don't talk as much as other siblings do, doensn't mean we're not as close. we meet up over breakfasts, lunches and dinners - just because. we were brought up by parents who aren't really sentimental about having family gatherings and whatnots so it's kind of difficult to get all of us together at one place at one time, but the time we do spend together - is actually quality time. we talk about what's going on with our lives, the places we've traveled to and eventhough it may not be obvious in words, we always support each other. what i've come to appreciate is, that we've always been honest with eaach other. we don't really sugar-coat stuff. most things don't bother us, but when the time calls for important stuff to get done, we get it done. i guess we're all headstrong and independent in our own way - but we've always been more of do-ers than talkers -and we make an effort to come together and support each other.
we have our dad to thank for the fact that none of us are shy about voicing out our opinions, but at the same time it's balanced by knowing when to hold back and keep our cool, which is what our mom has always taught us.
so these days, i appreciate my siblings more - for their independence, for their straight-forward ways, for all their good features and also obvious flaws. because i see some other friends who struggle to have straight conversations with theirs - and i'm glad that the connection between my siblings and i are so uncomplicated. for some reason, nowadays, that connection has just come naturally to us. and for that, i will always be grateful.
Monday, November 25, 2013
past. future.
when i look at my old blog, i feel like it's miles and miles apart compared to this one, in terms of content. my old blog used to be about all the feelings i had at the time, expressed in more vague and subtle ways. it also had a lot of posts about current issues; be it political or social stuff (guess i don't need to do any more of those kind of posts since we have twitter now). i feel like this blog is more direct and straight-forward. no hidden meanings; just a recap of the ongoings of my life. i'm not sure which of the above is better - but i feel like i'm in such a different place writing this, compared to where i was before - in terms of emotions.
the easiest thing to pinpoint is that i live a pretty drama-free life these days. i put it down to age, haha. as you grow older, i guess you just have less time for it. i mean, sure i have personal things going on with friends and family - but i try not to let it affect me as much as it used to. and being married has helped put me on a more stable ground - it's a great feeling to know that you always have someone that has your back.
anyways, it's gonna be my birthday next week. i don't really celebrate it in elaborate ways - normally just with friends. and probably a family dinner if my parents happen to be in town. but this year, i'm just too exhausted to even think about celebrating. by then, i'll be like 2 weeks away from popping (i just hope jigglyboo decides to stay in until i get my book-shopping done at BBW).
i'm in week 35 now. i know, i can't believe it myself. sometimes i feel like time passed by so fast, then other times, i feel like i just can't wait to get this over with and meet our little jigglyboo. pregnancy is tiring, for sure, but with the exception of the first trimester, my pregnancy has been pretty uneventful. i'm still driving myself to work everyday and hanging out with friends occasionally (although i limit these to close friends - due to time and finances) and i still pretty much cook dinner most days. but pregnancy has also been made easier due to the fact that R is an awesome partner who pretty much takes care of me (midnight and early morening kitchen trips to get me a glass of cold water, foot rubs, back rubs and much more) and tries to help out with everything that he can. i know a lot of friends say i'm lucky to have such a supportive partner, and trust me, i know i'm a lucky, lucky girl.
i think throughout pregnancy and also post-delivery, you just gotta keep surrounding yourself with positive people and avoid all the negative ones. it might sound ridiculous but hormones just get the better of you sometimes. so, sometimes, if you know a family or friend is the type that makes you go crazy on normal days, it's just better to spend less time with them instead of getting yourself all worked up and stressed out. i definitely learned that lesson the hard way.
so we finally got around to finishing all of our shopping - both for the apartment and also for jigglyboo and myself. i'm actually quite proud of what we've managed to do. we've rearranged the furniture in the apartment, and also spring cleaned the guestroom - and yesterday, we finally finished with jigglyboo's nursery room. sure, we had to spend a little bit extra on getting all the extra stuff we needed - but honestly, it's not something that we can't cover back in the next month (only because i refuse to dig into my savings unless it's absoutely necessary). now, we just need to focus on cleaning up the kitchen and our own master bedroom. but i love the progress so far, our little cozy apartment finally feels like home now :)
in between of working on our apartment project, thanks to R, we also managed to score some cheap flight tickets for a holiday mid-next year. we thought 6 months was reasonable enough to start bringing the baby to travel hehe and it's a place where i've always wanted to visit - so i'm pretty excited. now, just gotta plan for our finances to accommmodate our travel plans and we also need to purchase an extra infant ticket for jigglyboo once she's actually born hehe.
on the apartment project; we spent the whole of last saturday out and about (sunday was mostly spent at home; rohe had a 10KM run in the morning) - from our usual baby shop to the babies' section in a department store. we also made a couple of trips to IKEA in the last few weeks. luckily, we could focus our money and energy on just getting the additional items on our list and also extra stuff to spruce up the apartment and jigglyboo's nursery - since we'd gotten pretty much all of the other baby & mom stuff/equipment shopping done in the earlier months. prioritizing and organisation is really key in preparing for a baby's arrival.
speaking of organisation, i just got started on my hospital bag for labour time (i guess 35 weeks is kind of late but honestly i wasn't too worried cos the hospital is just across the street from us, so whatever i forgot, R could just run home and get them haha). now i just gotta do some surveys for all this post-baby stuff; "urut" ladies, confinement plans and such. honestly, i'm not that bothered because i was brought up by a family that doesn't seem to care much about all this stuff either - as long as i stick to a healthy diet (which i try to do anyway - even not being pregnant) i should be alright. but i guess hiring a masseuse lady for a few days probably won't do any harm. and my mom will be around to help out with the baby after she comes - of which i'm not worried either because my mom cooks healthy food anyway haha.
so i guess the next few weeks will just be a waiting game for all of us. i feel jigglyboo squirming around all the time now - i hope she's doing okay. but i have an appointment with my gynae coming up next week anyway, so hopefully he'll be able to help alleviate some of my concerns (not that i have much, apart from the fact that i hate pain so labour just isn't my idea of fun).
let's hope december turns out to be a good month :)
the easiest thing to pinpoint is that i live a pretty drama-free life these days. i put it down to age, haha. as you grow older, i guess you just have less time for it. i mean, sure i have personal things going on with friends and family - but i try not to let it affect me as much as it used to. and being married has helped put me on a more stable ground - it's a great feeling to know that you always have someone that has your back.
anyways, it's gonna be my birthday next week. i don't really celebrate it in elaborate ways - normally just with friends. and probably a family dinner if my parents happen to be in town. but this year, i'm just too exhausted to even think about celebrating. by then, i'll be like 2 weeks away from popping (i just hope jigglyboo decides to stay in until i get my book-shopping done at BBW).
i'm in week 35 now. i know, i can't believe it myself. sometimes i feel like time passed by so fast, then other times, i feel like i just can't wait to get this over with and meet our little jigglyboo. pregnancy is tiring, for sure, but with the exception of the first trimester, my pregnancy has been pretty uneventful. i'm still driving myself to work everyday and hanging out with friends occasionally (although i limit these to close friends - due to time and finances) and i still pretty much cook dinner most days. but pregnancy has also been made easier due to the fact that R is an awesome partner who pretty much takes care of me (midnight and early morening kitchen trips to get me a glass of cold water, foot rubs, back rubs and much more) and tries to help out with everything that he can. i know a lot of friends say i'm lucky to have such a supportive partner, and trust me, i know i'm a lucky, lucky girl.
i think throughout pregnancy and also post-delivery, you just gotta keep surrounding yourself with positive people and avoid all the negative ones. it might sound ridiculous but hormones just get the better of you sometimes. so, sometimes, if you know a family or friend is the type that makes you go crazy on normal days, it's just better to spend less time with them instead of getting yourself all worked up and stressed out. i definitely learned that lesson the hard way.
so we finally got around to finishing all of our shopping - both for the apartment and also for jigglyboo and myself. i'm actually quite proud of what we've managed to do. we've rearranged the furniture in the apartment, and also spring cleaned the guestroom - and yesterday, we finally finished with jigglyboo's nursery room. sure, we had to spend a little bit extra on getting all the extra stuff we needed - but honestly, it's not something that we can't cover back in the next month (only because i refuse to dig into my savings unless it's absoutely necessary). now, we just need to focus on cleaning up the kitchen and our own master bedroom. but i love the progress so far, our little cozy apartment finally feels like home now :)
in between of working on our apartment project, thanks to R, we also managed to score some cheap flight tickets for a holiday mid-next year. we thought 6 months was reasonable enough to start bringing the baby to travel hehe and it's a place where i've always wanted to visit - so i'm pretty excited. now, just gotta plan for our finances to accommmodate our travel plans and we also need to purchase an extra infant ticket for jigglyboo once she's actually born hehe.
on the apartment project; we spent the whole of last saturday out and about (sunday was mostly spent at home; rohe had a 10KM run in the morning) - from our usual baby shop to the babies' section in a department store. we also made a couple of trips to IKEA in the last few weeks. luckily, we could focus our money and energy on just getting the additional items on our list and also extra stuff to spruce up the apartment and jigglyboo's nursery - since we'd gotten pretty much all of the other baby & mom stuff/equipment shopping done in the earlier months. prioritizing and organisation is really key in preparing for a baby's arrival.
speaking of organisation, i just got started on my hospital bag for labour time (i guess 35 weeks is kind of late but honestly i wasn't too worried cos the hospital is just across the street from us, so whatever i forgot, R could just run home and get them haha). now i just gotta do some surveys for all this post-baby stuff; "urut" ladies, confinement plans and such. honestly, i'm not that bothered because i was brought up by a family that doesn't seem to care much about all this stuff either - as long as i stick to a healthy diet (which i try to do anyway - even not being pregnant) i should be alright. but i guess hiring a masseuse lady for a few days probably won't do any harm. and my mom will be around to help out with the baby after she comes - of which i'm not worried either because my mom cooks healthy food anyway haha.
so i guess the next few weeks will just be a waiting game for all of us. i feel jigglyboo squirming around all the time now - i hope she's doing okay. but i have an appointment with my gynae coming up next week anyway, so hopefully he'll be able to help alleviate some of my concerns (not that i have much, apart from the fact that i hate pain so labour just isn't my idea of fun).
let's hope december turns out to be a good month :)
Sunday, November 10, 2013
beep.
the last week has been pretty busy.
there was a public holiday, and then got caught up doing the year-end performance review at work, followed by three days at at teambuilding session in PD.
teambuilding wasn't so bad, met new people and got lucky with a great roomie. learned some interesting stuff, as you always do when you're at these teambuilding sessions. but i really did like our trainers/facilitators there - they were definitely encouraging and positive - somewhat opposite to what we experienced during the teambuilding for my old work place. but then agan, maybe their objectives were different. but it was nice to be treated like adults and not to get yelled at all the time. also, maybe the crowd was slightly older so the approach was different. and the activities weren't as super physical. still, definitely felt the after-effects of my tired body by the end of the session on saturday noon.
R was kind enough to pick me up at the teambuilding site so i didn't have to head back to our office in KL in the bus/van. right after leaving, R and i grabbed late lunch with my sister (i really don't see her that much eventhough we only live 5 mins away from each other - she's super busy with work, and i just don't go out much these days). also satisfied my choc ice blended craving with a choc chip muffin post-lunch. i don't know why i was craving that. maybe because i'd been surviving on hotel food for the past few days. anyway, we had to spend some time at the tyre shop after that - all four of my tyres were due for a change plus all that balancing and alignment that goes with it. this month's budget has seriously been damaged - had to spend quite a lot on my routine car service on monday then the new tyres cost another chunk. oh, well, gotta do what you gotta do.
sunday was super un-productive. R made breakfast for us while i stayed in bed most of the morning. then just lazed around in front of the tv. R went out for a few hours in the evening while i continued to laze around and eventually dozed off in front of the tv, heh. finally decided to get up around 5ish and cooked dinner - my homemade comfort meal of veggie fried rice with fried chicken. yums. R got home and we had dinner together and watched some tv til finally calling it a day.
wasn't really feeling good this morning - didn't really sleep well. kept tossing and turning the whole night, this tummy is definitely making me uncomfortable lately. i can feel jigglyboo squirming around and sometimes it just jolts me. but i feel you, jigglyboo. you must be feeling pretty uncomfirtable too with the space getting smaller as you grow bigger in there. i feel like my tummy is getting tighter every day, which makes sense since i'm into my 33rd week now. can you believe i'm already at 33 weeks? phew. when i saw my gynae last week, he was like, "oh, so we're almost nearing the due date, right?" i'm trying not to freak out, cos i totally don't feel ready for this. i'm nervous, scared, and seriously don't know what to expect. i'm normally good at not panicking but giving birth definitely feels like a totally different ballgame.
seriously, its crazy to think that God Willing and all goes well, in five to six weeks, we'll have jigglyboo in our arms. i can't wait to meet her.
i'm guessing that work for the next few weeks won't be that busy since the majority of the team has gone out for fieldwork - and won't be back for another six weeks. but i'm just trying to take it easy anyway - both at the office and with my social life.
have a review meeting with the boss after lunch today, though. don't have much to say but hoping that it'll go well, fingers crossed.
there was a public holiday, and then got caught up doing the year-end performance review at work, followed by three days at at teambuilding session in PD.
teambuilding wasn't so bad, met new people and got lucky with a great roomie. learned some interesting stuff, as you always do when you're at these teambuilding sessions. but i really did like our trainers/facilitators there - they were definitely encouraging and positive - somewhat opposite to what we experienced during the teambuilding for my old work place. but then agan, maybe their objectives were different. but it was nice to be treated like adults and not to get yelled at all the time. also, maybe the crowd was slightly older so the approach was different. and the activities weren't as super physical. still, definitely felt the after-effects of my tired body by the end of the session on saturday noon.
R was kind enough to pick me up at the teambuilding site so i didn't have to head back to our office in KL in the bus/van. right after leaving, R and i grabbed late lunch with my sister (i really don't see her that much eventhough we only live 5 mins away from each other - she's super busy with work, and i just don't go out much these days). also satisfied my choc ice blended craving with a choc chip muffin post-lunch. i don't know why i was craving that. maybe because i'd been surviving on hotel food for the past few days. anyway, we had to spend some time at the tyre shop after that - all four of my tyres were due for a change plus all that balancing and alignment that goes with it. this month's budget has seriously been damaged - had to spend quite a lot on my routine car service on monday then the new tyres cost another chunk. oh, well, gotta do what you gotta do.
sunday was super un-productive. R made breakfast for us while i stayed in bed most of the morning. then just lazed around in front of the tv. R went out for a few hours in the evening while i continued to laze around and eventually dozed off in front of the tv, heh. finally decided to get up around 5ish and cooked dinner - my homemade comfort meal of veggie fried rice with fried chicken. yums. R got home and we had dinner together and watched some tv til finally calling it a day.
wasn't really feeling good this morning - didn't really sleep well. kept tossing and turning the whole night, this tummy is definitely making me uncomfortable lately. i can feel jigglyboo squirming around and sometimes it just jolts me. but i feel you, jigglyboo. you must be feeling pretty uncomfirtable too with the space getting smaller as you grow bigger in there. i feel like my tummy is getting tighter every day, which makes sense since i'm into my 33rd week now. can you believe i'm already at 33 weeks? phew. when i saw my gynae last week, he was like, "oh, so we're almost nearing the due date, right?" i'm trying not to freak out, cos i totally don't feel ready for this. i'm nervous, scared, and seriously don't know what to expect. i'm normally good at not panicking but giving birth definitely feels like a totally different ballgame.
seriously, its crazy to think that God Willing and all goes well, in five to six weeks, we'll have jigglyboo in our arms. i can't wait to meet her.
i'm guessing that work for the next few weeks won't be that busy since the majority of the team has gone out for fieldwork - and won't be back for another six weeks. but i'm just trying to take it easy anyway - both at the office and with my social life.
have a review meeting with the boss after lunch today, though. don't have much to say but hoping that it'll go well, fingers crossed.
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