of sunshine and rainbows.

I hate being whiny and complaining all the time but this has got to be the most miserable period of my life. I know, it’s supposed to be the happiest time of my life but I just can’t muster up any energy to do so.

And I’m kind of frustrated with myself because from the outside, it just doesn’t seem to be like a big deal. But my stomach is uncomfortable ALL the time and if I’m not trying to figure out what I can eat that won’t make me throw up, then I’m in the bathroom actually yakking my guts out. It’s definitely no love and rainbows. I haven’t cooked in weeks or done the laundry or did any chores…I really feel all sorts of useless.

Everyone keeps telling me that it’ll get better (and the little research I’ve done online says so too) but at the moment, it’s not very comforting. Most of the time, I just feel like curling up into a ball. It’s not so bad when I’m at work cos I have things to distract me but when I’m at home… I don’t know. I’m just so nauseous all the time. Only thing that I feel really helps soothe my tummy is frozen yoghurt. Haha.

The house is in a sorry state of mess. Normally I would just be picking up stuff here and there and making sure things don’t get too out of hand. I’m lucky that my husband is a super person who does all the things that I can’t do for now (both him and my sis help out with the laundry) but of course it’s not really the same as what I could do around the house when I’m in a better state of mind.

But then again, I think I have to count my lucky stars that I got pregnant on the new job (sure, I’m worried about what my boss here will think, getting pregnant so soon into the new job, but hey it wasn’t planned) – but I don’t think I could survive late nights at the office (goes with the territory at my old job). And the stress would probably do me in. It’s stress-free here (so far), so maybe I should find some things to occupy myself with. Update: told my boss, he took it like it was any other uninteresting news haha. Shouldn’t have much effect on my work.

I want to do pre-natal yoga as well but don’t think it’s a wise thing to do at the moment, given that I feel nauseous, even standing straight up; much less with my heads between my legs.

I feel like I should be doing a lot more research – about food consumption, about my physical health, about the doctor for delivery (I pretty much have my heart set on a doctor but she’s VERY in demand so I guess I’m still up for opinions). But then again, I just don’t have the energy. I used to love veggies but I now turn green at the sight of greens. It sounds funnier than it actually is :/