Monday, November 25, 2013

past. future.

when i look at my old blog, i feel like it's miles and miles apart compared to this one, in terms of content. my old blog used to be about all the feelings i had at the time, expressed in more vague and subtle ways. it also had a lot of posts about current issues; be it political or social stuff (guess i don't need to do any more of those kind of posts since we have twitter now). i feel like this blog is more direct and straight-forward. no hidden meanings; just a recap of the ongoings of my life. i'm not sure which of the above is better - but i feel like i'm in such a different place writing this, compared to where i was before - in terms of emotions.

the easiest thing to pinpoint is that i live a pretty drama-free life these days. i put it down to age, haha. as you grow older, i guess you just have less time for it. i mean, sure i have personal things going on with friends and family - but i try not to let it affect me as much as it used to. and being married has helped put me on a more stable ground - it's a great feeling to know that you always have someone that has your back.

anyways, it's gonna be my birthday next week. i don't really celebrate it in elaborate ways - normally just with friends. and probably a family dinner if my parents happen to be in town. but this year, i'm just too exhausted to even think about celebrating. by then, i'll be like 2 weeks away from popping (i just hope jigglyboo decides to stay in until i get my book-shopping done at BBW).

i'm in week 35 now. i know, i can't believe it myself. sometimes i feel like time passed by so fast, then other times, i feel like i just can't wait to get this over with and meet our little jigglyboo. pregnancy is tiring, for sure, but with the exception of the first trimester, my pregnancy has been pretty uneventful. i'm still driving myself to work everyday and hanging out with friends occasionally (although i limit these to close friends - due to time and finances) and i still pretty much cook dinner most days. but pregnancy has also been made easier due to the fact that R is an awesome partner who pretty much takes care of me (midnight and early morening kitchen trips to get me a glass of cold water, foot rubs, back rubs and much more) and tries to help out with everything that he can. i know a lot of friends say i'm lucky to have such a supportive partner, and trust me, i know i'm a lucky, lucky girl.

i think throughout pregnancy and also post-delivery, you just gotta keep surrounding yourself with positive people and avoid all the negative ones. it might sound ridiculous but hormones just get the better of you sometimes. so, sometimes, if you know a family or friend is the type that makes you go crazy on normal days, it's just better to spend less time with them instead of getting yourself all worked up and stressed out. i definitely learned that lesson the hard way.

so we finally got around to finishing all of our shopping - both for the apartment and also for jigglyboo and myself. i'm actually quite proud of what we've managed to do. we've rearranged the furniture in the apartment, and also spring cleaned the guestroom - and yesterday, we finally finished with jigglyboo's nursery room. sure, we had to spend a little bit extra on getting all the extra stuff we needed - but honestly, it's not something that we can't cover back in the next month (only because i refuse to dig into my savings unless it's absoutely necessary). now, we just need to focus on cleaning up the kitchen and our own master bedroom. but i love the progress so far, our little cozy apartment finally feels like home now :)

in between of working on our apartment project, thanks to R, we also managed to score some cheap flight tickets for a holiday mid-next year. we thought 6 months was reasonable enough to start bringing the baby to travel hehe and it's a place where i've always wanted to visit - so i'm pretty excited. now, just gotta plan for our finances to accommmodate our travel plans and we also need to purchase an extra infant ticket for jigglyboo once she's actually born hehe.

on the apartment project; we spent the whole of last saturday out and about (sunday was mostly spent at home; rohe had a 10KM run in the morning) - from our usual baby shop to the babies' section in a department store. we also made a couple of trips to IKEA in the last few weeks. luckily, we could focus our money and energy on just getting the additional items on our list and also extra stuff to spruce up the apartment and jigglyboo's nursery - since we'd gotten pretty much all of the other baby & mom stuff/equipment shopping done in the earlier months. prioritizing and organisation is really key in preparing for a baby's arrival.

speaking of organisation, i just got started on my hospital bag for labour time (i guess 35 weeks is kind of late but honestly i wasn't too worried cos the hospital is just across the street from us, so whatever i forgot, R could just run home and get them haha). now i just gotta do some surveys for all this post-baby stuff; "urut" ladies, confinement plans and such. honestly, i'm not that bothered because i was brought up by a family that doesn't seem to care much about all this stuff either - as long as i stick to a healthy diet (which i try to do anyway - even not being pregnant) i should be alright. but i guess hiring a masseuse lady for a few days probably won't do any harm. and my mom will be around to help out with the baby after she comes - of which i'm not worried either because my mom cooks healthy food anyway haha.

so i guess the next few weeks will just be a waiting game for all of us. i feel jigglyboo squirming around all the time now - i hope she's doing okay. but i have an appointment with my gynae coming up next week anyway, so hopefully he'll be able to help alleviate some of my concerns (not that i have much, apart from the fact that i hate pain so labour just isn't my idea of fun).

let's hope december turns out to be a good month :)

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