it will be.

i feel like i have been spending most of the last couple of weeks in the kitchen at home. and happy to do so, i might add.

i love being at home, cooking and baking. i might not be great at either, but i don't think i'm bad at it either. i've been working on my chocolate chip cookies and have just found a lovely fudge brownie recipe - which i trial-tested on last weekend's get-together for our friends at home and also plan on making them for jigglyboo's Eid party at her daycare this friday.

honestly, i don't know what i want to do with my life. i'm slowly trying to build a business - for now, i'm having to spend on building samples for marketing purposes - but i believe if we work hard and God wills it to be, it will be.

we finally received the house keys to our new home yesterday! what an amazing feeling. i'd actually sort of forgotten what it looked like but i fell in love with it all over again. the ground floor was smaller than i remembered but the top floor was actually bigger than what i had in my memory haha. home-owners. it sure comes with a lot of responsibility though.

still on the hunt for a new job on the other side of town which will help ease the move to the new house. haven't heard back from any yet but it is still early days. for now, will just concentrate on the job-hunting and my little business and hopefully things will work out. sure, after this whole stint at my current job, i feel like i'm better at what i used to do (and i actually feel more useful) - but i know the job demands a lot of time and energy. i'll try my best to dive in and find that part of myself again but i don't plan on doing that forever. i'll probably work until we can find a way of supporting the family (either R finds a job that pays better with benefits or i can make enough income with a side business)  then i think i'd like to concentrate on being at home.

i know, i know, that was never in my plans. i'd always envisioned myself as a career kind of person but i guess circumstances change. and i've changed. but even if i do stay at home in the future, chances are i'd still be working on a career. just a career on my own terms.

if God wills it, it will be. insha Allah.